Tempter Tantrum Time!

i am so 100% absolutely done with the disrespect in this building where i work. it's impossible to hold a conversation with someone without being interrupted. and once the interruption happens, well, you can just go ahead and move on because that person is NOT coming back to the conversation. it's just absolutely ridiculous. 

anyone who knows my family knows that it is absolutely no secret that my younger sister is favored for anything 9 times out of 10. I honestly think that if i did not work in the same building as my mother that i would never talk to her. hell, we work in the office next to each other and i am rarely able to talk to her. she never has time to talk to me, but will drop e.v.e.r.y.t.h.i.n.g. the minute my sister or her husband calls. its absolutely ridiculous, not to mention the fact that its so heartbreaking. i've tried to tell me mother one story for over three weeks now. three weeks. but any time i try i'm either interrupted, or she's too busy. now, trying to call her at home.. that's even worse. you might as well call the white house and ask for the president because you will have a better chance at holding his attention.

i think this plays part in why i never want to talk about things. all of the time i just get blown off like whatever i am saying just doesn't matter. it's been that way for a looooong time. it doesn't matter if the subject is work related, home related, relationship related, friend related, family related... it's all the same. all the time. it's no wonder i feel the way i do.

How can I change that? I can't. you might be able to, but I can't. it must be in the DNA because i've tried talking to my mother about it and nothing changes. the same goes with my sister. every argument we have had over the past few years is about the same exact thing. all it comes down to is me wanting to spend time with my family. but unbeknownst to me, that is apparently only on THEIR time. Any advice would be greatly appreciated. however, apparently the only thing that seems to get my moms (or my sisters for the matter) attention is to throw a tantrum like a freaking 2 year old. i just want my own family. i want to do things my way and be the leader instead of the quiet girl in the corner.

until then,
megan